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Wanna cry? Then cry.

The day when we took the grad photo, I got to the basketball court quite late. Because that day may be an important one, but it was here before I could realized that. The basketball court where we were supposed to take the photo was filled with people taking pictures with close friends and classmates. I had disliked taking or being taken photos, my skills of taking a good photo and showing smart in the photo are disappointing, whose reason maybe had been destined. Owen dashed to me and pulled me to their line where Enzo and Loïc also stood there. Flash! Ah, another ugly image was born because of me.

I hadn’t seen Enzo for long. We became quite estranged since he forsaken Irène a dozen of days after he went to Irène’s for the night and had sex with her when her parents were out. All of us in the same department knew that he may had liked his Arabian language teacher, Miss MA. I felt so shocked and gloomy when I came to know they three’s complicated relationship. While I don’t mean I had been involved in their nasty things but just because I thought that it was becoming increasingly difficult for us to know somebody well before we see his disgusting internal side. …

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何曾就这样逝去

比喻这种修辞格似乎特别钟爱“青春”这个词语,有多少次,青春被比作各种各样的事物。从张爱玲的“青春是一袭华丽的袍,爬满了虱子”到某80后的“青春是一道明媚的忧伤”,它原本是什么样子倒已经模糊不清了。

只是有些东西,本身就带有浪漫主义气质的东西,是不必硬要探究其本质的。真理虽愈辩愈明,但恐怕青春这东西是没有什么真理的,或者说,青春本身就是真理。一旦辨明,那也不过是青春的坟墓而已。就像那么多的比喻,我们不能从中挑出一个最贴切的。在更多的时候,青春不过是逃课,不过是打架,不过是悲伤,不过是一场小小的华丽的恋爱,又或是一段苦涩的庞大的友情。只是它在我们的生活中早已留下了太多的影子,等到我们发觉的时候,它已经訇然覆灭了。


今天看书看到一句话“她整个人看上去一点也不自信,或者会让人觉得她存在着一些小小的心理疾病——这一点其实我很肯定。”这样的时刻多得不计其数,难免要对号入座。我在想我们是不是陷入了一种误区,我们是不是已经默认“忧郁”“变态”为青春的代名词?当今80后和90后之争,恐怕绝大部分比较的是阴郁的气质和消极的思想。 …

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